| Location | Bradford |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 3/2007 |
| Date of Death | 3/2007 |
| Visitors | 1,492 since 25/06/2007 |
| Creator |
Noah Bell
20/03/2007
0 years
His Mummy and Daddy live in Bradford, He has no brothers or sisters.
And was stillborn at his Birth.
He was such a surprise as we didnt know that we were having him. But he was the most beautiful and precious gift, that anyone could have given us. We look at the pictures we have of him and they fill us with love. He looked so much like his dad, as his dad is very tall and Noah had long legs. He was so perfect, We were so blessed to meet him, even though it was for such a brief time.
Throughout what i now know now was my pregnancy, i was informed by the Doctor three times that i had IBS, The second time i went back to the Doctors i was informed that I was Depressed over the IBS, even though i went to them with Pain in my stomach.
I feel so robbed of the precious time i could have cherished with him and the scan photos i would have got so excited over.
I was experiencing pain, which started two weeks before Noah was born, (contractions). Because of the experiance i had with the Doctors i didnt want to go back, but the pain got worse to the point where i wasnt sleeping. I tried to hold on until my day off which i did. I went to the Doctors on the Afternoon of the 20th March 2007.
The Doctor examined my stomach again and gave me pain killers.
I was informed to come back tommorrow for a smear test.
I went to my Mums as my partner was at work and i didnt want to go home alone. I still couldnt sleep and the pain was getting worse. My Mum and Dad decided that they were taking me to Bradford Accident and Emergency.
They took my blood pressure and decided to get me seen streight away as i was in so much pain.
The staff there were lovely and they informed me with stomach pain, they would have to do a pregnancy test.
The result was obvious i was to become a Mum.
The doctor listurned to my babys tiny heart beat and felt for him. He informed me that they would take me up to the early pregnancy unit as i had no baby bump, and they would inform me what the pain was and how old my little angel was.
I never got there
Within ten minutes my life had changed. I jumped off the bed as the pain came on, and then my waters broke.
I gave birth to my angel, there at 10:13pm all i could say is that it was the most scariest happiest and yet my heart was broke in half at that moment. The nurse and Doctor was shocked that he was at least 7 months and so perfect. I had delievered my baby boy. He was still born, no screams nothing.
I was taken to the maturnity unit, and Noah was given to me, he was so perfect, he had little flecks of blond hair, long legs and big hands like his dad. They dressed him for me and the clothes seem to bury him, he was 4lbs. No one would tell me why i had lost him, he was so pink, he looked like he was sleeping.
We buried him on the 05th April at Scholenmore Cemertery in the Baby Garden, We asked that only Noahs Aunties and Uncles, Grandparents and Great Grandmas attended. Noahs Daddy carried his little coffin, I was inconsolable, i just wanted to run and hide with Noah, to hold him and kiss him just one last time.
We played Eric Claptons Tears in Heaven as Joe carried him in. I cannot recall the service, i couldnt stop crying, i felt so much sandness.
We played Tracy Chapmans the Promise when he was carried out, as the words in the song are so Beautiful.
I will never forget Joe kissing Noahs coffin, I couldnt believe it would be the last time we would be so close to him, together as a family.
I think of him constantly, his little face, of how he would be when he grew up, playing with his cousins Joshua, Ethan and Cole all the boys together.
My partner Joe would have been such a great dad to Noah, He loves playing with his Nephews.
Joe would have taken him to football, and i can imagine when he was a little older him being taken to Snooker.
He is such a active person that Noah would have been up to all sorts because he would have followed his dad.
I would have been laughing all the time with them two.
I feel so empty without him, and feel so useless, my time now is spent on keeping Noah alive in Memory. I am going tomorrow the 27th June to find out hopefully why my little boy was taken from me.....
I will never be able to accept that he is gone, a part of me died the day i lost him.............................
I went on the 27th June 2007 and was informed that the reason i lost Noah was because his placenta failed. A part of it was weak and starved him of oxygen. Even though you know the reason it doesnt make the fact that I have lost him any easier.
They also confirmed that he was eight months old, and that he was perfect, his orgens etc was the correct size for his age. I feel so sad to know that my little boy nearly made it.
Because of his age i have been informed that i could register him. This is the one thing that i have wanted from the Moment i had him, It really riped me in two when i had him because i wasn't allowed to do this because they couldn't confirm how old he was.
I went to do this, to be informed that because he is over three months old, he couldnt be registered as the law states with all Still born births they have to be done before they would be three months. Im really angry as the hospital has had Noahs test results since May, and hasnt sent me a appointment out because of a computer error. And if my partner hadnt chased it, we wouldnt have had the one we got.
We tried to get a earlier appointment but we couldnt get one.
I feel so robbed as it pains me to know that Noah only exsists in my Medical records as baby born stillborn, no name nothing. I have Nothing to say that i gave birth to him, had a christening, gave him his name nothing.......I feel so hurt by this.
R.I.P LITTLE MAN
hello baby havnt spoke to you in ages have i well ive just been thinking about you like i dnt everyday lol but i just wanted you to no that i love you so much and i miss u all the time i cry everynight tryin to get the upset out of me but it dont work sweetheart i just wish you were here dnt tell mummy i cry cause im trying to be strong im going to try come and c you and get you a prezzi 4 ya birthday well i hav u a prezzi but its at the side of my bed i kiss it everynight wishing it was u i thought there is no point me taking it to ur grave 4 it to get all soggi so ill keep it safe baby luv u so much and i miss u always hugs and kisses R.I.P sweetheart love you xxxxxx
Hi
I re-read Noah's story today as his birthday has not long since passed and my girls' is coming up.
I also adore the beautiful picture's i have of my little girls - they are so precious to their Daddy and I. I think they help it seem more real and make you remember how totally gorgeous our babies are.
I hope Noah had a great time playing with my girls in heaven and that his family had gentle day too.
Catherine x
Don`t let them say,i wasn`t born
That something stopped ny heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave
I`ve loved you from the start.
Although my body you can`t hold,
It doesn`t mean i`m gone.
This world was worthy,not,of me
God chose that i move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face.
You have my word,i`ll fill your arms
Someday we will embrace.
You`ll hear that it was'meant to be,
God doesn`t make mistakes'
But that wont soften your worst blow..
Or make your heart not ache.
I`m watching over all you do,
another child you will bear.
Believe me when i say to you,
That i am always there.
There will come a time,i promice you
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you`ll understand.
Although,i`ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes..
That doesn`t mean i never 'was'
An Angel Never Dies.....
R.I.P. little one. xxx
One night I cried to Jesus
As I sat beneath the tree;
I looked into the open sky
And hoped He'd answer me.
'I'm lost dear Lord ...
I've traveled far but still I seem to roam;
Please light the way and lead me, Lord,
I need to get back home.'
I told him of my burdens
And of the sadness in my heart;
That from His gracious love
I'd never felt so far apart.
'Why did you take my child, Lord?
I cannot understand!
No longer can I touch his face
Or hold his tiny hand.'
'I'm angry, Lord ... I'm missing him,
I'm drowning in my sorrow;
Please help to heal my yesterday
And face each new tomorrow.'
It was then I heard his gentle voice
And felt his presence near;
How I wanted so to hold him
As I cried another tear.
he said 'Mommy, I'm an angel now,
My spirit will be free;
I'm an angel now in heaven,
So please don't cry for me.'
'I was chosen by our Lord above
And now I'm in His care;
Whenever you need me,
Just look inside your heart; I promise I'll there.'
'No one can ever take away
Our bond with one another;
For I'll always be your precious child,
As you will always be my mother.'
'So if you cannot find your way
Or the road to home seems far;
Just look up to the Heavens
And I'll be your guiding star.'
he said, 'Mommy, I'm an angel now,
My spirit will be free;
I'm an angel now in Heaven ...
There's no need to cry for me.'
so far but so near
Hi Baby, I love you so so very much.
were going away for a week but your in my heart and thoughts always little man........
were never far away from you, and grandma and grandad are going to visit your special place for me.
ill bring you something special back, and ill take little ted with me and take a photo for you... we will be back very soon my angel, ill look to the stars every night and their you will be .... my little star..
TWINKLE TWINKLE ARE SHINIG STAR WE ALWAYS WOUNDER HOW YOU AREWE HOPE YOUR HAPPY HAVING FUN PLAYING WITH THE FAIRYS IN THE SUN. LITTLE FAIRYS UP ABOVE GIVE ARE NOAH A GREAT BIG HUG, KISSES BLOWN UP TO THE SKY SO BLUE CATCH EM NOAH THERE JUST FOR YOUXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXLOVE U LOADS BABYXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
missin you lilman
God makes little children
He makes them every day
And though He loves them dearly
He gives them all away.
He gives each to an angel
And says take baby down
To such and such a mother
In such and such a town.
Or such and such a cottage
In such and such a place.
He gives the angel with it
A big soul full of grace.
God does so love those children
It's all that He can do
To let the Angel take them
But he loves the mother's too.
And so he says I'll lend you
This little one of mine
The angel folds it's love
About the special gift divine.
The angel watches over
The child both day and night
So glad to see that lovely soul
All shining in God's light
God makes so many children
And every now and then
He seems to want one specially
We don't know why or when
He whispers to its Angel
Bring the child back to me
The angel sees a lovely sight
That someday we may see
It sees the souls of mothers
And fathers in God's light
Offering him tiny children
Whose souls are shining bright
God does so love those children
Whos souls are never dim
And how he loves those parents
Who give them back to him.
LOVING U ALWAYS XXXXXXXXXXX
so sorry
hi noah,s mummy my connor was born sleeping at 33wks after having 5 girls i know ur pain although i have 5 girls he was my 1st son taken so cruelly from me n he,s dad n siblings our thoughts r wiv u ur not alone this site is so comforting ive made many good friends which is a blessing as there going threw the same pain as us god bless 2 u n ur family love delena.xx
Your Great Loss
Sorry to hear of your loss as i just found out its so sad and im so very sorry for what you all had to go through there are no words good enough to express what sorrow you must have felt my prayers are with you all ..im so far away but yet i am near . I would have been Noahs Great Uncle Michael xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Kimberley, I am so sad. So desperately sad for you and Joe. You buried Noah the day I gave birth to my little girls. The council and scholemore have told me that Bryonie is buried next to Noah and next to her, Lucy. So please know that my little girls will look after him forever, that I can promise. Your story about how you buried him with your husband carrying the coffin is what happened with us. Tom carried both my girls and we both kissed their coffin's. It seemed to be so wrong that it had to end there. That whole journey was over.
I was inconsolable too. My Dad had to drag me away both times because I was completely hysterical. I kept saying 'They shouldn't be with God, they should be with me!'.
No-one on this Earth or otherwise could love our babies half as much as us.
I'm so glad I have this oppertunity to send you my condolences over Noah. We look out for his toys every week. If the wind (or the vandels) knocks anything over, we always put it back up for Noah.
If you ever need me, I am always here.
Catherine x
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